it's always raining when you drink

crash and burn
as your light cascades,
pierce my heart
wash away all this hate
this anger...
let the rain be my redemtion
let the bottle
be my saviour
(because you've had enough
healing for a lifetime)
drown me in
these muddy waters
and clean yourself up.
if i could,
i would hate you
with more passion
than a thousand lightning bolts
but i can't...
so instead,
i'll continue hating myself
for the reasons
i believe
i failed you